Day 3: Something I have to forgive myself

there are a lot of things that I have to forgive myself for but I think that the one I will talk about is being judgmental. I have a habit of making lighting quick judgments before I really know the rest of the story. I need to work very hard on not judging other people but what I see going on in their life becasue I really do not have the full story. I have had people do that to me and it hurts. I need to realize that I am not perfect so I canot expect others to be perfect either. Becasue I am not perfect I make mistakes such as judging others and I need to forgive myself and work on not making lighting quick judgments.

Day 2: What I love about myself

This seems to be kinda egocentric and I do not like being egocentric. But Lets see what I can come up with. I love that I have a talent playing the Piano! I love being able to sit at the piano and make music come out of the keys. I love that i am a mom.
Being a mom has brought me such joy. It also comes with a lot of frustration but being with my two boys is worth all the heartache as well as all the joy. I love my ability to be able to read. It is nice to have a hobby that will take me into my imagination and let me relax for a little while before retuning to the real world.

I am grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ. I know that becasue of him I can and will overcome my weaknesses which are many. I am grateful that I am part of a family who loves me for who I am. That is about all that i can come up with today. so till tomorrow Ciao!

Day 1 of 30 days of Truth.

I saw this on my sister in laws Blog and thought it was a fun idea. Lets see if I can be diligent about doing it.
So here is Day 1 Something I hate about myself

This was hard. I really had to think about it. I am not sure that there is anything that I really hate about myself except maybe my lack of motivation it excecise. I Do fine for a week or so then I just lose the motivation. But being a mother of two active little boys keeps me going even if I am not doing a daily routine. I try to be really positve about myself so it is hard to say what I really hate about myself. I try not to feel that emotion. SO i guess in the end I just hate my lack of motivation. Lets see what I can come up with for tomorrows blog. until Tomorrow! Ciao!

No more Crib!

My Baby has moved into a big boy bed. He has outgrown his crib. Unfortunatly now that he is in a big boy bed it is almost impossible to get him to take naps now. But on the bright side he goes to bed earlier. It is had to believe that Alex is Two already. Both he and Benjamin are keeping me on my toes these days. They like it when I wear dresses and skirts because the try to pull me alround the house by my skirt. It is kind of funny until they start fighting over me. Both of them are momas boys and they do not like sharing me with each other. I cannot believe that it is October already. I am done with my Christmas shopping this year so now I do not haver to stress out over the season and I can avoid all the stores during the Holidays which is nice.

Wow where did the Summer GO!

This summer has flown and the Eigel Cru has been really busy. We went to the Zoo and the boys loved the animals. Then in June the boys and I went down to California to Visit my sister and her kids. I actually got to see a lot of people even though someone is was supposed to meet up with just totally blew me off. Then in July we went to the enchanted forest with is a fairy tale theme park. THe boys had a lot of fun seeing the fairy tale adventures. August was an interesting month. We got to say goodbye to my Brother who went into basic training. Then Alex turned two. We also went to the Oregon Steam up which has a lot of tractors, miltary vehicles and even a small model train you can ride. Benjamin really had fun riding the train. Alex did not enjoy the steam whistles too much becasue they were so loud they hurt his ears.
NOw it is September. Wow Times really has flown. On Saturday we went to the Shrewsbury renannsaince Faire. That was fun. It was fun watching the knights joust. The boys really loved the horses and seeing all the swords. It was fun looking at all the different capes and dresses that they had for sale there. I have managed to keep the family really busy this summer which is a good thing.

Potty Training Blues

I am trying to potty train Benjamin. We are having some luck but he just doesn't want to do it. He just likes playing in the bathroom and flushing all the toilet paper. I am working on it but I hope it will click for him soon.

On to another subject. I got to say good bye to my brother Clayton on Monday. He goes into basic training in South Carolina on Monday and he will be gone for 6 months. I was having a hard time knowing waht to do aobut telling him goodbye because our relationship has always been very rocky. That is just because our personalites are so different. I love him very much and am so proud of him. I was able to get a hug from him as I was leaving to take my boys home and I just started to cry. It is extremely hard for me to say good bye and I know that he is doing what he must to take care of his little family. I am just grateful I was able to say goodbye and I hope that he knows how much I love and admire him.

I am grateful to have alex and Benjamin to take care of even when they do try my patience at times. Benjamin is learning his ABC's and it is so fun to see him learn. He is talking more and it is funny having him engage in a conversation with us when we did not know he was listening to what we were saying.

Why?

why is is that when you are in the store if one child is being good the other one is having a melt down? Why can they not just both be good at the same time? I was in the store with Benjamin and Alex and benjamin just had a major melt down. Alex started crying becasue he was bing sympathetic with his brother but I eventually had to take Benjamin out of the store. Stephen was with me so I left Alex with him. But I swear benjamin was just being a pill.

Last Friday I was able to go on a date with Stephen with out children. That was really nice since I have not been without the boys for who knows how long. We went to see the movie The Last airbender which was a lot of fun. THen we went out to dinner at the Golden Tent which is a mongolian grill reataurant in Salem. IT was so nice eating dinner without having to worry wither someone besides myself was getting enough to eat. It was nic to be able to eat dinner without someone wanting what I was eating as well. It was nice to be able to have a break from my two darling boys. By the time we got home Alex was so tired that he slept through the night without having me rock him in the middle of the night. THat was wonderful. On Saturday we went into portland to go to one of the malls there and both boys through fits. It made me wonder why we take them anywhere at all.