the return of the stressed out mommy!

Have you ever seen a woman about ready to pull her hair out and jump up and down and scream because nothing she does pleases her darling 20 month old son! IF Not you do not have to go far because here I am. I have reached the point that I am ready to run out the door and run down the street as fast As i can screaming at the top of my lungs. Alex is not sure what he wants and so he just screams. IF I give him a cracker it is not the right cracker. If I pick him up to hold him and try to comfort himj he just screams louder and wiggles until I put him down. Trying to get the laundry down when he wants your full undivided attention is not easy and trying to get the house clean is near impossible when all he wants is to be held. Then when I sit down with him to cuddle him becasue my back is about to break becasue he is such a good sized boy he screams becasue he wants mommy to be holding him. This goes on all day and then at night he finally goes to sleep and is so precious it makes being a stressed out mommy all worth it to see the little angel fast asleep.
I love being a mommy but its days like these that I really question my sanity. But when a little one curls up in your arms asleep and peaceful at last it makes all the hair pulling and screaming worth it. Now I just need to find time to unwind before I have to get up in the morning and my hectic day starts all over again.

Random

Well I survived the cleanse.I did feel better after doing it despite how hard it was to have self control. I am doing my best to excercise. But I do know that if I stress over the weight that I know I need to lose I am not going to lose any. So I just need to relax and keep working out and I know that the weight will go away eventually.

I am so grateful for the easter season. I am grateful for the Savior and his sacrifice for me. I know that his sacrifice was the ulimate gift of Love. I am grateful for the season of spring and the opprtunity we have to celebrate a rebirth of sorts.

It is so much fun watching my Children grow. I am so blessed with having two special boys to take care of. They make life very interesting. Life is never dull around here.

Alexander likes going into the kitchen and taking the pots and pans and cooking utensils and pretending he is cooking. It is very cute and I really don't mind cleaning up after he has created a disaster zone in my kitchen.

Benjamin is getting to the point that he likes to take his library books and he sits down and looks at the pictures and tells me the story. It is very fun watching him learn to love books.

It is hard having only one car in the family because that means I am stuck at home all week. But the weather is getting better so that we go out for walks. I am grateful to be able to go out side the house and see the beautiful tulips and daffodils and other flowers. Spring and Fall are my favorite seasons because of the beautiful colors.