Day 9: Someone you did not want to let go or just sorta drifted

This was a intresting one for me to do because of how many places and times I have moved. But I was actually able to come up with a couple of people.
When I was in elementary school there was a girl there that we loved doing things together and this was ata time when the Babysitters club book series was very poplar my friend and I decieded that we wanted to start our own club and we would come up with all sorts of ideas where to have the clubhouse. Of course we never actually had a club house but it sure was funn dreaming together. We even had secret names for each other for birthdays and other things. So here is to Jinx and Melly Mouse. I had another friend in elementary school that we have actually reconneted through facebook. It is really nice to remember that I do have some fond memories of Growing up.
The other person that I wish that I had not drifted away from was a friend I met while I was serving my mission in Wisconsin. It was my first companion. I really liked her and she sure taught me alot. We just lost contact because life happens.

Day 8 Someone who made my life heck or treated me awful

This is a difficult one to answer. There was a time in my life that I made some very bad decisions so that my life was awful. There was another person involved but I think that becasue of my own decisions the conseqeunces of my decisions were what made my life Heck. So I guess if I look at it that way I made my own Hell. It took a couple of years for me to change my life around but I did. With the help of my Savior Jesus Christ I was able to make the changes necessary to be happy again. So by taking responsiblity for my own actions if I had not made those choices I would not have suffered. But I learned a lot of lessons from that experience that I do not think I would have learned otherwise. So dispite how difficult and painful it was for me If I had to do it again I would to help the people that those decsions affected as well as me.

Day 7: Someone who has made you life worth living

This is a fun one. I get to brag about my special someones. Actually I have alot of people who have made my life worth living. But the one O am going to brag about is my grandma. She has been a wonderful Grandma over the years. I have always loved visiting and talking with her. She makes me feel loved and special. I love my grandma. She is the best grandma in the world. She is a very unique and outstanding individual. My Grandma is my best friend. She listens to me and she helps me understand who I am. She is a very special person who has had a really difficult life but still is able to have a positve outlook. She is very Gentle and caring and loves her family very very much. I Love you Grandma.

Another person who has made my life worth living is my wonderful Husband. Stephen is really a sweetheart. He loves me and he loves his boys. He loves taking care of his family. I am so grateful to have him in my life. I love the fact that when I have had a hard day with my two little boys he comes home and takes care of them so I can have a much needed break. He surprises me and loves to tease me and it makes me feel very loved and needed. He is sensitive and kind and is very thoughtful. I am so glad that he is mine. It has been a nice 5 years having a wonderful husband. I hope the next five years are even better!

Day 6: Something I hope never to do

I hope never to live in Hawaii. I know that this sounds odd. I would love to visit Hawaii as much as I can I just don't think I want to live there because I think that If I lived there I would take all of its Beauty for granted. So I do not want to live there.

I hope never to eat esacargot. I have to agree with my Sister in law that would be gross. I cannot imagine having a snail slither down my throat. I can't eat oysters for the same reason. I have eaten a oyster so I know what I am talking about.

I hope I am never robbed again. I have had the experience of having a person take all my personal belongings and I do not like the feeling of being violated. I hope never to have to experience that again.

I hope that I am never in a situation where I cannot protect my children. My children are my life and I will do anything in my power to protect them and have them grow up to be responsible adults.

Day 5: Something I hope to do

Now this one is a little easier for me to answer. There are a lot of things that I would like to do. I would like to go camping with my two boys at Yellowstone National park. I would Like to visit Scotland and Wales. I would Like to serve another mission this time with my Hubby. I want to take a family vacation to Hawaii! I would like to be the best mommy I can possibly be so that my boys are happy andsecure when they grow up and start families of their own. I would like to take a road trip across america visiting all the national historic sites along the way. I would like to meet Thomas S Monson and Henry B Eyring and Dieter Uctdorf.
These are just some of the things that I would like to do.

Day 4: Something I have to forgive someone for

THis is a tough one. I know that forgivness is for ourselves as much as it is for the other person. I am grateful that we have the opportunity to forgive people. But I asl know that we have a responsibilty to take care of ourselves. Just becasue we forgive someone does not mean that we have to stay in a situation where we will continue to get hurt. You can forgive someone without having to trust them again. For example if one is in an abusive relationship be it emotional physical or what ever you can get out of the situation and still forgive the person who truly hurt you. I had a friend in High School who really used me and was not very nice to me. I realize now that she had issues that she liked to take out on me. It has taken me several years but I have forgiven her. I do not have hang out with her anymore or put myself in situation where she can use me again but I realize that she was just living her life the only way she knew how. But hI have forgiven her and got on with my life.

Day 3: Something I have to forgive myself

there are a lot of things that I have to forgive myself for but I think that the one I will talk about is being judgmental. I have a habit of making lighting quick judgments before I really know the rest of the story. I need to work very hard on not judging other people but what I see going on in their life becasue I really do not have the full story. I have had people do that to me and it hurts. I need to realize that I am not perfect so I canot expect others to be perfect either. Becasue I am not perfect I make mistakes such as judging others and I need to forgive myself and work on not making lighting quick judgments.

Day 2: What I love about myself

This seems to be kinda egocentric and I do not like being egocentric. But Lets see what I can come up with. I love that I have a talent playing the Piano! I love being able to sit at the piano and make music come out of the keys. I love that i am a mom.
Being a mom has brought me such joy. It also comes with a lot of frustration but being with my two boys is worth all the heartache as well as all the joy. I love my ability to be able to read. It is nice to have a hobby that will take me into my imagination and let me relax for a little while before retuning to the real world.

I am grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ. I know that becasue of him I can and will overcome my weaknesses which are many. I am grateful that I am part of a family who loves me for who I am. That is about all that i can come up with today. so till tomorrow Ciao!

Day 1 of 30 days of Truth.

I saw this on my sister in laws Blog and thought it was a fun idea. Lets see if I can be diligent about doing it.
So here is Day 1 Something I hate about myself

This was hard. I really had to think about it. I am not sure that there is anything that I really hate about myself except maybe my lack of motivation it excecise. I Do fine for a week or so then I just lose the motivation. But being a mother of two active little boys keeps me going even if I am not doing a daily routine. I try to be really positve about myself so it is hard to say what I really hate about myself. I try not to feel that emotion. SO i guess in the end I just hate my lack of motivation. Lets see what I can come up with for tomorrows blog. until Tomorrow! Ciao!

No more Crib!

My Baby has moved into a big boy bed. He has outgrown his crib. Unfortunatly now that he is in a big boy bed it is almost impossible to get him to take naps now. But on the bright side he goes to bed earlier. It is had to believe that Alex is Two already. Both he and Benjamin are keeping me on my toes these days. They like it when I wear dresses and skirts because the try to pull me alround the house by my skirt. It is kind of funny until they start fighting over me. Both of them are momas boys and they do not like sharing me with each other. I cannot believe that it is October already. I am done with my Christmas shopping this year so now I do not haver to stress out over the season and I can avoid all the stores during the Holidays which is nice.